The History of Samael

Dearest Reader,

I have often blamed a being known as Samael (or as I have nick-named him "Sammy") for many of my current problems, and without my families genealogical/historical record you-my Dearest Reader-are probably quite confused as to your present state of enthrallment and have many unanswered questions in regards to who he is/what he is. (I write of course for the benefit of my progeny, and any others who would fall victim to the family curse.)

So, the following is what I have come to know about the Demon Samael for your future knowledge and needs.

Samael is described as both a Demon and an Angel in many different Christian-Judaic texts, however as I have come to know him, he is definitely the former.

If there was ever an Angelic bone in his body, I have not seen it, but the descriptors for him in the Talmud; a collection of rabbinic texts on various topics including Angels, is an apt one: Accuser, Seducer, Destroyer.

He is depicted as a blind 'lion-faced serpent', but I believe my description of him as a great-red-multi-winged dragon is a better likeness then the medieval one. He appears to me mostly as, a well dressed man in a dark red suit with glowing red eyes most days....Half made of smoke and sulfur....His aura is one of malice and the subtle urging of raw want...

I believe this is partly his way of getting you to notice his presence as well as weaken ones resolve against his temptations but, that is mostly hearsay on my part.

The only way you can see him in the mundane sense, is through some form of reflection. (A mirror, a puddle, even through someones glasses.)

Don't be fooled though, He is always with you.

He knows what you're doing, where you are, and what you might want from a situation. I tend to talk to him aloud, but just thinking about what you want in response to his voice, will illicit an answer just the same.

He can be abrupt, sometimes obtrusive, while  other times he's completely absent. Generally though, he just wants to watch you squirm/suffer before stepping in  to help. However, I will not say that when he offers his help that he cuts corners.

On the contrary. When you accept his offer-He cuts right to the chase. You say it, its done. You need it, its there in the most convenient way. There is always some kind of catch his offers, but He NEVER skimps out on  a deal.

He seems to relish in making these deals and tempting my family line further 'down the rabbit hole' and I caution you-dear reader to do as much as you can against it.

He does not have your best interests in mind. He is not your friend. He does not want to make you happier. He does not want for you to escape his clutches. He just wants your soul.

There is no escape, no bargaining, no other satisfaction for him to have other then to  watch you beg for things....For his help. For you to rely on him. For you to need him.

 Then you owe him.

It will never be easy the first time you ride the train to glory and come crashing down. You'll feel like an empty shell. Hollow and without drive for anything except to feel "normal" again....He'll make you do terrible things to get out of your debt...Steal, mug, harass, kidnap...Even murder.

You will never sleep well at night after that. The nightmares of the things you've done to "feel human" again will haunt you in your sleep. You'll do things that were never even a thought in your brain to "pay off" your loan.

And most unfortunately of all. Another tattoo will be added to your body-every time you fall victim to his charms.

This constant reliance on his offers start a countdown to the end. It is literally your lifeline and access to his power all wrapped up into one sadistic little ball...

AVOID THIS AT ALL COSTS.

I have tried and tried not to give in, and I used to only give into his power in dire need. (Regretting it later as my humanity returned.) However, I have grown accustom to getting what I want/need. I have almost come to think of him for every little hill and bump in the road of life that I come across.

Learn from my current mistakes Dear Reader. Life is not easy, life is downright hard. It's not meant to be easy, so sometimes you have to stumble, fall, and break a few bones.

Believe me, it sucks. It's hard, but you learn from every drop of blood split and every bruise gained that sometimes, its okay to fail. Sometimes you need to be reminded of how powerless you are in order to become a stronger person later.

Those little battles; and believe me they are petty and little looking back at it all, that make life the experience that it is...

Don't give in to Him to knock down some upstart rugby player on your team during try-outs, or to get a new car, or to get you the best clothes of the season...It's not worth making your life shorter...

In the end, it only kills you faster.

I've learned that now...The hard way...

It took me years of looking out for myself and being on my own for so long, to realize that I've got to make this power count.  I've got to make the best of this situation and actually help others for once...

In just the past year, I've got friends whose safety and well being I care about now...I'm in love with a girl who I feel a desperate need to protect...

I have to use my power--My Life--sparingly.

 I've completed the head and the start of the two wings for the tattoo. I can just barely cover it with a T-Shirt. (The ends of the wings are starting to trickle just past my shoulders.)I can't afford to waste any of it....I can't afford to lose my life over something selfish or petty. My last breath needs to matter to someone other than myself.

Dearest Reader, I pray that you learn from my mistakes and make every use of the curse count...

If you remember anything of this lesson, remember three things:

1) Samael is NOT your friend.
2)All of his deals cost you part your life, so treat each deal you make as though it was your last.
3) Make any deal you make, count for something.

Yours Sincerely,
-V

TO VINCENT'S FUTURE SPAWN,

DON'T LISTEN TO VINCENT'S BELLY ACHING.

JUST KNOW THAT I CAN GIVE YOU WHAT YOU WANT.
ANYTIME YOU WANT IT. 

VINCENT'S FATHER DID IT. 

I MADE HIS FAMILY RICH, PRESTIGIOUS, AND HAPPY FOR QUITE A LONG TIME.

 SURE, EVERYTHING COSTS SOMETHING IN THE WORLD WE LIVE IN. A GUY HAS GOT TO MAKE A LIVING SOMEHOW, AND YOU CAN'T REALLY FAULT ME FOR MY WORK NOW CAN YOU?

WHY NOT MAKE THE FARE A LOT CHEAPER? THE ROAD SMOOTHER? I MEAN, YOUR LIFE IS SHORT.

I MEAN, REEEEEALLY SHORT.

YOU'RE BORN, YOU LIVE, YOU WORK, YOU MIGHT FALL IN LOVE AND FUCK, THEN YOU DIE. 

IF YOU'RE LUCKY.

IF NOT, YOU DIE YOUNG, PENNILESS, FRIENDLESS, AND ALONE WITHOUT ANYTHING TO YOUR NAME.

I'VE HAD PLENTY OF GODFRIED'S WHO BECAME "MARTYRS". THEY ENDED UP NOBODY'S AND DIED WITHOUT REALLY LIVING. 

THEY LEFT THEIR SQUALLING BASTARDS AND MOTHERLESS ORPHANS ALONE TO FEND FOR THEMSELVES.

DON'T BE LIKE THOSE SELF-RIGHTEOUS LOSERS. 

DO THE RIGHT THING.

NEXT TIME YOU NEED SOMETHING, GIVE ME A CALL.

I'M ALWAYS HERE TO SERVE YOUR NEEDS.

YOUR FRIEND AND HUMBLE SERVANT,
-S